I have found that journaling has been very helpful to me along the way. When I go back and read things, it does help me to see that there has been movement from my H, but also a lot of growth from me.
H has been spinning more lately. But when I think back to the past two Decembers, it is a big improvement.
This year, he was great when we went to get our tree. Seemed happy, didn't text, sang Christmas songs in the car. He even stayed home while we decorated the tree (he went out the past two years)
Still, seeing some odd behavior from him. He's been acting weird - if you can believe this- about sending out Christmas cards. He asked me more than once who we are sending cards to, and, do these people send cards to us?
??????????
I think he saw FT tonight - you get to a point where their behavior is pretty transparent. The lame lie. The guilty behavior when they come home.
I was feeling down about it, and decided - f that.
So instead, I took the boys to see Santa, out to dinner, and then came home and snuggled with them under a blanket while watching "The Polar Express".
I'm happy now
When the vets post about MLCers acting crazy around the holidays - believe it. Accept it. But also believe that you can find happiness and peace by spending time with the special people in your lives, that you can make sure you and your kids celebrate and have fun to the fullest.
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."
