You need a job.. This is kindly said, because it really hurts me to read these things.
A job will give you some freedom financially and more importantly a sense of self worth that you don't have right now , but the potential is lurking just below.
Having read golf moms posts, do you have all the necessary documentation you need to start divorce proceedings? Have you protected yourself as far as you can?
I am not suggesting you go out and divorce the man, but it is better to be prepared.
Since you have no way currently of supporting yourself have you found out what your situation would be if he initiated, let's say, tomorrow? I'm sorry if you've mentioned you have and I didn't see.
Many lawyers do a pro bono with legal aid so ask around.
I would have asked for a present that I could resell on craigslist.
