See this shows you haven't changed. You're still doing whatever you feel like doing despite how it might make her feel. You're just interested in making yourself feel better. Won't help your sitch though.

M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER