So Crim, work on that. You're not really able to enjoy your S because you're worrying about things that may never happen.

I lived a lot of my life worrying about things that never happened.

Have you ever thought about doing the EE that 25 talks about and some others here have attended?

Where do you think all of your fear comes from?

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss