10 year anniversary today......he's coming to we the kids. I needs to chat about Christmas plans....I'm not looking forward to it. I don't want what he wants and he doesn't want what the kids want.....
I've had a rough few days. Very emotional. But feeling better. A wise person told me to work on my fear, so that's what I'm doing.
I can live without him. I'm actually living without him. I'm happier without him. I'm looking after myself. The kids have stability. I need to build my new life after Christmas. New job needed. New house needed.
I come first now. I'll always have the kids best interest at heart but they can't always have everything they want if it will harm me. I'm their constant and I need to be happy to keep them happy. This isn't selfish, it's building a sustainable future.
My H has to build his own support network now. I'll always be there for him but I can't put him first anymore. It's harming me. It can't any longer.
I suspect he has the OW on the go again too, so I need to step back. His journey, his choice, none of my business.
This girl is moving on!
The first step is the hardest. You sound great.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
