Wonka...

Forgive me for not reading all of your posts, I am just going from what I read here.

I completely understand what you are saying here, and backing away for some time to sort yourself out ?

Is that how you usually do things ? Or would that be you just hiding from yourself....

One thing that I do know, is that when we feel ourselves spinning out, the BEST thing to do is to get back to DB101 basics...

With that....

What are YOUR goals with this ??

What ending are striving for ???

I know that you said that you have "moved on"

Which part of you moved, your head, or your heart ???

When you come to those conclusions, then I think that you also ask yourself WHY are those your goals...

Is it guilt ?

Lack of self forgiveness ??

Pride ???


I do see a lot of each of those in that post ^^^

And any of those three can hold you back from your personal growth from this.

You are not the same person that you were back then. Neither is she...

And maybe, just maybe, you have nailed yourself at the foot of that cross for long enough...