ambivalent, I am praying for you, for all of us.
I know the 'I'm not coning back speech.' I heard it as well.

your head will be spinning.
put it down for now. give yourself time to process.

M48 H50
M21 T26
S20 at college),S17,D15-cp, dev. delay- cogniv 5yrs old
PA confirmed 7/2012
H separates 9/2012
H move home 2/13& 7/13 lasted 2weeks.ILYNILWY
OW still in picture. h filed 10/13