Thank you 25 I appreciate your input....I realize it was the right response and I'm learning to accept things for the way they are. It's been a looong and confusing 7 months though. Now however, I feel as though I have come "out of the fog" of being left behind. Detaching and moving onward is my resolve at this point and it has been coming on strong of late.
Since joining this board I have had excellent advice and input from so many here. I know in my heart these very worthy people have helped bring me through to where I am today. And yup, even the 2 x 4's I've been hit with occassionally were deserved and served thier purpose.
Now 8 months later, I have relocated, took a new job, purchased a new vehicle and have met lots of new people. Geesh, some of them even seem to like me. Things are definately on the upswing again and honestly I FEEL PRETTY GOOD...The number one and most important thing I have learned is to DETACH. This truly is the only way back to our own sanity again.
For any newcomers who might come across this, let me say the following: NO, it is not easy. The pain of losing a supposed loved one hurts for a good long while. Thoughts and pains will creep up on you sometimes even after you begin to move onward. But I promise you, if you detach (there are many things written here about detachment)and keep moving forward there really is light at the end of the tunnel!
