I guess you could look at today as quite a setback in most respects, but it's the first time my W has given me something substantive since this began.
We are trying to divide things up, and are getting into the nitty gritty. Unfortunately, things may be turning ugly after I just let her know my feelings. That this is hard emotionally and killing me, and that I never thought I would end up here. She sent me the following email- "If I can be completely honest and blunt... Here are my thoughts on your thoughts as far as you not knowing that you would be in this situation... I had no idea the man I married and wanted to spend the rest of my life with would deceive me from Day 1 and shatter my dreams.
You say it's killing you each step in the process of the divorce and I have been holding back any comments regarding my feelings in an attempt to keep this civil. I don't want to open pandora's box.
Your expeditious handling of this matter will allow me to continue my healing process."
I sent back the following- "Hello W,
Thank you for your honesty and bluntness. I understand why you feel that I deceived you from Day 1.
I will continue to be civil moving forward- no matter what. Please don't feel you need to hold back on expressing your feelings for my sake. If you would feel better getting your feelings toward me out, I want you to know you can do that by any means you deem appropriate.
As far as my feelings, I have internalized them my entire life. I am working on being more open with my feelings. I only intended to let you know this was very difficult emotionally for me. I am not enjoying this. I don't delight in your pain. I am in no means implying that the opposite is true and you delight in my pain. I know I am not the victim. I apologize if you perceived me as stating that.
Respectfully, H"
How did I do? 2X4 time?
H: 29 WAXW: 30
Bomb Drop- 9/9/13 Negotiated Settlement- 5/9/14 D Final- 5/21/14 XW has breakdown in attorney lobby- 5/30/14
