Sorry you find yourself here but you will get support.

Post often that way you'll get out of moderation sooner. Read and post to other threads.

Your H most likely believes he's tried everything he's willing to try.

Several EAs and a PA are a definite warning signs in a M. How did you work through that? Are you in IC?

MLC, untreated depression, you be the judge. Depression can wax and wane.

It seems you're doing the right things. Since you've identified being home too much as an issue, what are your goals around that?

What ages are your kids?

Have you read DR +/or DB?

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss