Thanks, Pud. I never had the dreams about reconciling with H until now. This is why it is weird.


Still cannot decide whether to let H in the house to pick up his stuff or not. I thought I was firm on that decision yesterday. Today I read some posts about how confrontation is not helping MLCer to move in their crisis. If I don’t let H in the house, he will see it as a confrontation. If I let him in, he will see that his clothes is still in the closet and nothing really changed in the house and he will think that I’m still waiting for him.


I’ve received a Christmas picture-card from H’s older brother and his W today. Addressed to me. Why? I’m not related to them anymore, I don’t have kids with H, so there is no blood connection here. I don’t talk to them. We only saw each other when we traveled with H. My son is not in contact with their kids. I’m happy that they didn’t discard me like H’s sister did, but I also feel some resentment. I know from the CC charges that he stopped by their place yesterday on his way “south”.


On a positive note, I’ve been getting closer to finalize the health insurance for me for the next year. I’ve been cleaning my office and packing H’s old stuff in the boxes. I will have something to give to him when he gets here, LOL.

M:50
H:52
S28 (my S from previous marriage)
M:17 + 3
BD: 06/12
S: 06/12 - H works in another state