Hi all. I'm new here.

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There is no way that word d*uche describes anything remotely like what people do when they're DBing.

Had to say it.

I agree. That's why I'm being respectful and caring, but it sounds like I'm being too respectful and caring.

If I do anything remotely close to how I was, it will come across as douchy to her. I'm sorry, I do have a way with words sometimes. I don't quite have the same connotation to words like that as most people do. I grew up being called all sorts of racist names, so I think I kind of developed a thick skin when it comes to derogatory words. Sorry if I offended you.

I will call myself a douche if my ex asks if I can drive her to the grocery store and I say that I can't. To some it might be called db'ing to let the was to suffer in -40 weather with no means of transportation and a 3 year old in tow. Some may call it being a doormat. I think I view it as being there for my family.

As for the other stuff I do, I can agree that it does look like I'm being too available. That is why I'm making an effort to go out more. I guess I could hang out by myself too. I think I may be interested in picking up yoga.

I dunno, I gotta figure out how to become dim with the limited time I have. I basically have my son the majority of the time. Which is awesome btw.