Here is the link to my last thread, if anyone is willing to catch up on my sitch.
Even though my sitch is over a year old now, I am still struggling with certain aspects. Recently I've had issues realizing the cold hard truth of my sitch. W checked out completely at BD, no games, no looking back, never waivered in her choices, and she has since moved on with her own life. For all intents and purposes, she made up her mind, and she is GONE. She has new friends, new partner and a new life. She completely re-invented herself. It took her a total of 6 months to find a new life and move into it, and I struggle with that timeline as well. It hurts to think she can completely move on that quickly and easily. She seems happy, for the most part. She posts lots of stuff on her FB with OM, and happily portrays themselves as a family. Here is my problem. I don't know why, but I still have this wishful feeling that W will give me another chance, some day. That is probably not likely. It is based more in my broken heart than reality, but yet I can't seem to shake the thoughts of reconciling. It has been on my mind a TON lately, and I don't know why. When I lay out the facts, I don't even think that saving this marriage is possible. There was just so much damage, so many people involved, so many changes have taken place...still my feelings persist. I don't know why I can't shake them! I know they are no longer healthy for me. I am at another road block, and I need some help to get around it....anyone have any words of wisdom here?
