Portia, I see you've finally gotten to the land of dropping the rope. Good for you! Live your life for you.
Are you ready for the holidays? How is your father doing? Are you doing anything fun or going to spend the time w/family and friends?
Portia, dropping the rope is one of the best things you can do for yourself. I'm very proud of you!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.