NLT, Being an executor of an estate isn't that hard for some. It's being responsible overseeing the estate, paying the bills, etc. Your h is very much aware of his state of mind and doesn't want to have to deal w/it. I also think that even though he feels that it's time for them to depart this earth, I do think being the executor would bring it all home to him that they are gone. He doesn't want that reminder hanging over his head even though there will be other reminders as well each and every day. He doesn't want to have to deal with finality of it all by being the executor.
The holiday season is an interesting time for the mlcer and the lbs. Your situation is moving along at a snail's pace, but I'd much prefer that because he's baking up slowly and exploring all avenues of his mind and his past. Hopefully he can resolve all of his issues in the coming months.
You sound good and I do hope that you can find some peace this holiday season. You've had quite the year.
I do hope that 2014 will be a better year for you and your family and that your h will slowly work his way home to you. He doesn't have a clue just how wonderful you are.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
