Tonight I headed out to happy hour with a group if women who are all recently separated or divorced. It was great to get out. When I got home, one of the Christmas presents I had ordered arrived. Each year I would get a new family Christmas ornament for our tree. I was agonizing over what to do this year. I finally found the most beautiful ornament and it arrived today. I love it. It is a wooden snowflake with the word "BELIEVE" inscribed on the front. After BD I bought myself a heart necklace with the word believe handstamped inside. Anytime that I was feeling sad, I would wear the necklace to remind myself that I need to believe in myself, to believe in god and to just let go. If I felt the urge to call H or do something stupid, the necklace served as a reminder to stop myself and to really start believing in me. It is the word that I repeat to myself if I feel that pain and grief start to take over. I am so excited that I will have this ornament to hang each year to remind me of how I learned to love and believe in myself again.
Que up.... Don't Stop... Believing, Hold on to that feeling.
