I have tried to be "low key" with the kids in all this. Dear son performed in a play for his drama class this past week. I took the day off to see the performance. Much to my surprise and pride my son had the male lead role in the play. Then just now I received an email from DD's school. I immediately opened it to learn she was chosen "Freshman Sweetheart" at her organization's dance. I wasn't told about the dance or her being chosen for this honor until after the fact. Has it come to this? Do my children not want me to be any part of their lives or do they expect I know what is going on in their lives through my X's wall of non information? X said she is so upset because I had her arrested that she cannot bring herself to communicate with me (I'm expected to find things out on my own because I know where they go to school, etc.). There is supposed to be a C session tomorrow afternoon with DS, DD and myself. I was expecting it to be rough, now I expect it to be I don't know what to expect. I don't know what to say. I think I screwed up in my response to them when they finally communicated the last day of Thanksgiving Break that they could spend a morning with me (I had given up after multiple attempts initiated by me and had plans that morning). I was thinking about dropping the charges against X but now I'm just numb and thinking of nothing.
"The answers are within you" (can't remember who). Unfortunately, so is the bullshit.
