Finding nuggets of gold on this Great Big Hill

[Pudmuddle]

Hey MrC, thanks for stopping by and catching up. I agree, there is some truth to looking for love in all the wrong places...doesn't usually work out for a real relationship.

thanks tl, he is NOT ready to cope with much. Although...

Today has been a strange day. Strangely nice.

He knew I was organizing most of the Christmas gifts for family and today he actually said we should go out and shop for stuff. I said...ok, with a little suspicion. He has not gotten into Christmas or shopping the past few years so I usually took it all on. Then the whole time we were out he was cheerful and happy, actually talked to me a lot. Even when we had nothing to talk about he was still talking about anything. Venting on work, telling me what had happened at work, the things he saw, people he talked to. IT WAS SO NICE. He helped me make decisions on little gifty things, he went in to every store with me and walked around as if interested, in life. He would have let me go in by myself while he sat in the car before...And he wouldn't contribute much to decisions in the past. We were making jokes with each other like we used to. Where has this man been? It was so NICE. Even when we got home, before we went inside and I was getting out of the car, I said 'I had a really fun time with you today, it was so nice seeing you happy and cheerful'. He looked at me seriously and said 'I'm trying'. Wow.

Tomorrow he has to go in for a colonoscopy because his younger brother had intestinal cancer, so all the kids went to get checked out to be safe. He has to not eat all day, so he has been commenting every time he smells or sees something good and we laugh. At one point, he said "Gosh my stomach is SO hungry!' I said jokingly, 'well I could punch you in the gut so you'd forget about it' He laughed and then said 'Yeah, you'd kick me in the nards'.

Then he even asked if I had some laundry to throw in with his. He has been doing his all on his own lately.

I am going to bask in this good time, because I'm sure there will be some down time for him soon. But how nice for now, huh?