The hard part is not letting your mind constantly "go there".
But not having to deal with the coldness, the anger, feels better.
Question about the xmas party, if you cant go with him then you don't know if u even want to go? That's pretty passive-aggressive. If you cant have it your way, then you just are willing to do it? The party is a real chance to show off some PMA, get dressed up to the 9's, and get out of the house.
Your willing to feed him, he's shown a few small steps with the kids. Is it not enough for you right now, then your still having to many expectations. Remember this is going to take time, lots of time.
You want to show your making changes, cause you certainly cant tell him. But then you limit those chances. You keep heading into a cheeseless tunnel.
He sounds like he's angry but still being pretty responsible, take the baby steps, take his anger as your chance to validate and listen. Get back to work, you can do it.
