By the way, I am absolutely terrified of STDs. That has kept me in line my whole life!! The thought of cobtracting something makes m sick to my stomach...

And I only had one previous partner before W. And wife had none. And we were always soooo happy that it was completely and totally safe. So that angle scares me and when it actually comes down to it i have no idea what i would do...

I know W has had blood panels done recently and was clear. But what is OM doing one and half hours away for upto three weeks on his own is not a risk I'm comfortable with....

So in all honesty I'm not sure what I wiuld do if sex became an option. My DB coach thought I needed to suck it up and prove my desire for her if I want her to see it is there.. of ciurse she said only if I was comfortable with the STD angle.

Me, H-34 now 38
W-32 now 35
T-13 now 18 years
M-6 now 9
Daughter 3 years now 7
Bomb 11/27/12 - OM
1 year in house separation
Reconciliation 12/2013. Healed now 2017