rH, I'm glad you had a nice time last evening and your beautiful self was shining throughout the evening. Bravo!
You are still growing and you are learning something about yourself each and every day...you are learning to like the new and improved rH. The changes you made were for yourself, not just to get your h back and that's where you must remember to follow through and not fall back into old habits. The new year is coming fast and w/that, new promises, goals and adventures for one and all!
I'm very proud of you!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.