This morning I heard W crying in her bedroom when she woke up. I did not go in there, because I didn't want to interfere, or attempt to "fix". I made a nice breakfast and when she came out she looked really bad. While eating together she said she had a bad dream last night, and it symbolized where she is at right now. I asked if she wanted to talk about it and she said I was the reason for the bad dream, but didn't offer details, and I didn't want to probe. My guess is she's still struggling with the pre-BD incident I initiated.

She said things weren't supposed to turn out this way, and she just wanted a way out. Also that she envied our dog who is nearing her final days.

I didn't say much, mostly just listened. Actually, she didn't say much either, pretty much just what I posted.

Later we talked a bit about the days plans in normal fashion. Next Saturday we bring a meal to my first sister's home, as she recovers from breast cancer surgery.

I think I'll let W go see her Dad by herself today, I have stuff to do here.

I'm just trying to stay out of her way, while still being there for her.

There is no doubt in my mind that what my W is going through is way more difficult than anything I'm experiencing. I hope she figures it all out soon.

Comments or advice is appreciated.

M: A really long time.
Crisis: 5 years.
She's still worth it.

Life is never made unbearable by circumstances, but only by lack of meaning and purpose. -Viktor Frankl