NEW LIFE / NEW ME - AIRBORNE II

[Fartiltre]

Haven’t spoken to W for some days now and I feel a little hopeless. Her pursuing seems to have stopped for now.

I visited a friend Wednesday, cancelled another appointment with another friend Thursday, did a pubcrawl and stayed over at a third friend yesterday and today I have been at S10 school, had lunch at one of Ws best friends and her H and in an hour or so a fourth friend is coming to my place and staying over! I am GALing my a$$ off and I think I have done a good job GALing the lasts months, but W is on my mind constantly! I miss her and I love her!

I am on the way down on the roller coaster and I feel my hope diminishing these days. She just seems gone! So I will once again put on the happy face and act-as-if, apply time and patience and put the focus on me! This is not a marathon these days – it feels more like a 100K endurance run in Sahara so I will put on my sunglasses

I called W today to talk with D6 about wishes for Christmas. She didn’t pick up so I texted and asked her to get D6 to call me. An hour later D6 called and we talked and hung up. 5 min later D4 called and chatted. Nice to hear from them and talk to them. I miss them. Talked to both but W didn’t come to the phone and I didn’t ask her to.

I will have to call W tomorrow or Monday and get the Christmas sorted out. I owe her some answers. I haven’t changed my mind so I will stick to the plan. I am planning on taking the children to a movie on the 25 and have been thinking about asking W to join but once again this will just be serving her cake that she haven’t even asked for so I properly wont.

Sandi,
Can I have your opinion on a sentence like this:
W, You made the decision to brake us up and I don’t want to confuse the children or others about the two of us … me attending a little private birthday might just do exactly that

Thanks
F