All things dull and ugly...

[LoisB]

Thank you Job.

You're right. I have a hard time when I'm feeling pressure from a lot of different places. I need to learn to relax and take one thing at a time.

I guess that's what I did yesterday. I relaxed some.

I picked up D19. I had two hours in the car alone and I was able to settle down a bit.

Picking her up was pretty hard work because they have to clear a lot outta their rooms for people to come in and clean during the 6 week break. I rented a nice car, luxury sedan!, so we had lots of room and I enjoyed driving it. I have it the whole weekend, which will be nice.

The whole picking D19 from college is done. I'm glad to have that off the list. I think it was troubling me quite a bit because I wasn't sure how to get it done amidst everything else.

The next thing I have is an appointment with a mom this morning. So, I need to pick up the house.

I also have to call my friend, the money guru. I need her help. I'm having more business opportunities come my way and I need help managing all of this without overspending. Deposited over 1200 yesterday which will help things.

This business may actually make it. Wouldn't that be a hoot!

I'm glad I reminded H yesterday about the $800. I will be feeding D19 for the next six weeks and it's stuff like that which seems to fall between the cracks in his drug addled mind.

I also purchased a coat for her during Thanksgiving break. MIL said she would handle the coat, but D19 hasn't heard a thing from her. Like mother like son. I have the feeling they are using D19 as a scapegoat again because she doesn't want anything to do with H.

And, she needs a $200 prescription which I need him to handle. I, honestly, don't see how he is going to be able to handle the mortgage, support and D19's remaining tuition next semester. I need to be vigilant and on my game here. And, I need to ask for help in certain areas where I'm feeling depleted.

Having some time away from D11 helped this week. She spent a few afternoons at a friend's house and, then, when I picked up D19, she went to another friend's house. I'm so impressed with how she is handling these social situations. I don't think anyone would guess she has Asperger's. This two years away from H has been hard, but has given her the ability to blossom because his grumpy, judging, doubting-she-has-Asperger's self hasn't been a shadow over her. Could this be why God removed him from the mix?? We all seem to be doing better without him.

This is the kid who had NO, ZERO friends. She now has Three Besties and another girl she wants to invite over.

D19 was elected to her sorority's executive council. She is the first freshman in 25 years to be elected to this position. I'm so proud. And, she has straight A's.

I'm going to clean today. Call my money guru.