Hoping to still move forward, huge setback

[cbtdad]

Wife and I met with MC yesterday. It got a little heated wen discussing this past weekend. The MC asked me why I am having the feelings I am and I told him that it still hurts and that hurts turns into anger. MC agreed that this is an unusual situation that we are in because majority of the time when an affair ends the spouse who had the affair completely withdraws themselves from any contact with the other person and their friends and family.
I told him what I am really struggling with is the lack of affection that I feel from my wife. He said we would begin to dive ini this next week.
I've decided that beginning today until our appt on Jan2nd I am going to keep a daily journal on my phone. I will include when she hugs me, says something negative, instigates sex, etc.
in that time I WILL not lose my temper or say anything about hanging out with other friends or things like that. I will not instigate sex. I figured I DB'd for so long that I can go 3 weeks to see what results come of it. I'm wondering if I truly put this all in the past and not bring up a single thing if I will see things begin to change.
We shall see