Coming Back To Life

[BrightFuture]

Thanks, Busting. You are the one who always has patience with my wining. I don’t think you are an irritation to your H, he is just trying to keep his distance because he doesn’t know how to resolve his own issues. I hope one day you will learn the truth and it will not be what you think.

I cried a lot yesterday, but it more about the work situation than anything else. I’m just getting so scarred. It’s never been that long when I could not find a new project. I hope you are right and there is something even better for me out there.

Well, H replied to m e-mail where I asked him what he wanted to do with the business checks. He put quite a few sentences and it is very polite. He gave all the numbers on what he wanted to pay himself, upcoming expenses, pending invoices, and also about the expenses for his trip south (didn’t mention the cities by name.) He told me that he is planning to start driving south tomorrow. Then he asked my opinion about whether to cash the checks or not. He put “What do you think”, without a question mark. It is like he doesn’t really expect an answer from me?

Based on the expenses he mentioned for the trip south, I assume that he is driving his camper, it eats a lot of gas. So, I need to be prepared for him taking more of his stuff from the house. Maybe his plan is to establish the residence in that state where he works. Maybe he found a OW. Speculation again, sigh… When I looked at his expenses again though, I only saw a few days where he charged more for food. The rest of the time it looked like the meals for one person. So, my assumptions about an OW might be wrong.

I think the trip south means stopping by his state to see his high school friends and sister. And of course, it means partying. Is he ever going to be tired of that?

In any case, I’m just trying to process this last communication. Maybe he is starting to feel more comfortable to deal with me, so his idea of being “best friends” seems real now to him.