So I had court. Still no willingness to compromise from her. Going to trial. She sent a couple of emails before the trial with more ludicrous statements invented from whole cloth. I don't know if she actually believes what she is saying but her statements are so far from reality that it is difficult for me to believe she does. So much anger and hate still. There was a brief thaw when she dropped the TRO where we could have a civil exchange, but she's since ramped up the vitriol back up.
I sent her a message that detailed my regrets that things ended up here and how I wish they could have been different, no response, not that I was expecting one. I had a week moment before therapy and snooped on my STBX in-laws Facebook pages. All in all, having a pretty bad week. I feel like I can't begin to heal until this is over, if then.
I wish we could just have one adult conversation about this. And I feel like an idiot for still caring.
I'll be doing my best to keep busy this weekend, volunteering for the non-profit, doing a couple projects for friends from church, and a few other things, but I think it's going to be a rough couple of weeks.
