Trust you MH, typical bloke, lol. I agree NQ, I feel the same way about H at the mo. Once Christmas is over with my H might go back to being a "monster" again I feel this is why I need someone at the mo as well, someone who will hold me through the bad times as well as the good Mind you, that's taking on my baggage and he may not want to do that! Ok so a girl's allowed to fantasise, lol. I was thinking today as I was shopping that I'm 48 now, who's going to want a 48 year old and why couldn't H leave me when I was in my 30s, lol. Oh that's right he did and then came back! <sigh>
H47 me48 T22 M21 S20 - Got high functioning autism 3/2000 H admits to OW and moves out to live with her 11/2000 H moves back home 2/4/13 H moves out H tells me he wants D 6/13, but now he can't afford to!
I feel this is why I need someone at the mo as well, someone who will hold me through the bad times as well as the good 
Mind you, that's taking on my baggage and he may not want to do that! Ok so a girl's allowed to fantasise, lol.