On a serious note, it was FEAR that kept me standing. It started with wanting her back…wanting my family back together…but in many ways, the root of that was fear. When faced, that FEAR pushed me to a place of self realization that quite honestly was not a “happy” place to stay for a while but allowed me to really get me, really understand so much about life and myself. At some point and quite honestly I could not tell you when…staying on the boards became more about me trying to understand and fix me and less about my XW. I wanted more, I wanted to find peace, I wanted to understand love, life….
What brings me back? Hmm….I have taken long breaks (although I still read often) but always feels that without the boards, I would not be where I am today. I am firm believer in the notion that the “work” is never done..there is always an area of ourselves that we may want to explore and see if changes are needed.
Finally, I have met some of the most amazing people on these boards – and so in many ways…I come back to see “family”.
Happy holidays to all of you.
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
