Feel like falling down

[willbwell]

going to go take a walk because I feel a lot of pent up frustration...

need to share. need to get it out of my system.

just everyday crup. (laundry, dinner, traffic)we all have it I know.
I do everything for kids and get 0 appreciation from h.
he'll get back in town tonight. he'll want to take kids to dinner or see a movie-like that is being a parent. like that is ok. I want to say to h ,that NO, it is not ok.
I don't get to say, I'm tired of your BS h, because then that pushes him to ow.
Makes me the bitter evil ex-to-be

I feel like screaming at h. He is a selfish child. I envision kicking and punching him. Not very attractive on my part, I know
I need to get myself in a kickboxing class.

I am giving myself wrinkles and grey hairs.

I am not happy right now.

usually h texts d15 on my phone.
no text today. sent a text to s17 last night to give phone to d15 so he can call her.
really h? using s17 as go between. NOT RIGHT.
We still have a landline. he could call her at the house.

Wish I could say to h, just leave us alone. You have made your choice.