All things dull and ugly...

[LoisB]

Merci Bestie.

I need to vent. I drove the Jeep last night and felt this moisture hitting my face.

Turns out the area above the windshield is letting in snow. There is a thin layer of snow on the dashboard.

Then, there's Christmas. I still need a tree. I ordered my Christmas gifts, but I think I spent too much so may have to send things back.

I gave D11 permission to purchase the 1 Direction movie on Vudu. But, even though I've asked H to solve a problem with our joint checking account, he hasn't and the purchase didn't go through. She has been waiting for this day for weeks and she can't watch the movie. I have to sort out what's going on.

D19 needs a ride home. I asked her to check around for another ride but IDK.

I had the new student yesterday which was insane. He is very troubled. I will not be able to teach him full time. This means I won't be able to collect the amount I charged her at first. I'm angry that this situation seems to change daily with this family. I will vent more on this subject later.

So, D11 is driving me crazy because she wanted to stay up til 3 a.m. to watch this movie and, then, this morning, she can't watch it.

So, I had to text H for his address.

He called me. With a bright, cheery happy this morning voice. Ugh. I almost didn't answer.

I answered, but I didn't sound happy. I was just too whatever.

So, I cut the call short. I told him to text me the address. I thanked him when he did. I was full of resentment.

Then, I sent him this text.

Me: I feel angry this morning, as you could probably tell. It's snowing inside the Jeep. D19 needs a ride home. I need a tree. And, there are a lot of other things on my plate. I need the $800. I feel angry I'm handling this on my own while you live differently.

I'm ok with it. I tried to convey my frustrations without bludgeoning him.