BG, sounds like you had a good night. I can totally feel the pain you are going through. While I do think it is an advantage to have H around so you can DB and he can see the changes in you, I will admit it is extremely painful to have an H around who you are not allowed to act married to. For a while, everything seemed almost normal - in fact, maybe even better than normal - except that I could not touch my H. I never realized how often we would touch each other until then. He would come upstairs and sleep with me every few nights and we would be intimate and hold each other all night, but then go right back to the no touching the next day. It was brutal.
I think it was great that your H noticed that shoveling was different for you, and the way you handled his inquiry was great. Also, nice to applaud him for having done all the shoveling in the past.
You're a rock star, BG!
me: 44 XH: 42 M 11 years D10 and S8 Bomb drop 9/27/13 D final 7/1/14
I can totally feel the pain you are going through. While I do think it is an advantage to have H around so you can DB and he can see the changes in you, I will admit it is extremely painful to have an H around who you are not allowed to act married to. For a while, everything seemed almost normal - in fact, maybe even better than normal - except that I could not touch my H. I never realized how often we would touch each other until then. He would come upstairs and sleep with me every few nights and we would be intimate and hold each other all night, but then go right back to the no touching the next day. It was brutal.
