Thanks, Tiger. What you wrote is exactly how the rational part of me feels and thinks about this!
But, the scared part of me is....well.....scared. Lol.
My R is so wishy-washy that I don't know what "phase" we are even in right now or if it even matters...but I don't want to screw up us working things out by me being so insecure.
I "want" to just move forward, with confidence and hope, and let all of the fear go. But, it is hard.
It is hard when I wonder where he is...what he's doing, is he telling the truth about stuff, etc.
I keep looking for grand gestures...when I know this isn't what to expect (plus, I shouldn't have expectations, anyway, right?!).
I am trying to look at the tiny, small positives. H letting me look at and use his phone. H being more open and honest. H calling me more. H paying more attention to the kids. H buying Christmas lights. H talking more about our future together.
Ugh. The prideful part of me just doesn't want to be a fool, again, if he's lying. But, yes, I DO want a better, new M with my H.
