Aww Callie. I agree this would be very hard. Slow down, girl. Take a breath. When you get in freak out mode, what I do is, try to pay attention to my breathing. Breathe in through your nose and out through your mouth slowly. Do this about 4 or 5 times. This helps distract me from the moment of freakin'.
For one thing, I would stop wondering whether he is coming or going or when or where. You are in a very good place with him and he is trying. What the girls wrote on my post was very good, about how H is still trying to get comfortable in his own skin, may not feel worthy of you yet, so he is trying really hard. Take it moment by moment and don't think about what will or MAY happen next. You just can't do that to yourself or you will combust. As I said on my post I might split into two personalities
Slow your brain down. Take his moments and enjoy them at the time. You can do this.
Me:49 H:47 S: 16 T:27 M:25 My EA: 2001 His PA: 10/2007, 6/2013 Separated, but H still in house
Find your Shambala: a place of peace and happiness.
