Being the nice person isn't always fun!

[CallaghanClown]

Help I'm scared.

Everything is moving too fast and I'm not ready. He was supposed to stay in the tunnel for a long time yet.

I'm scared that I'll push him back in. I'm keeping cool in front of him but freaking out when alone.

Yesterday we had a long conversation about how low he was feeling. Then today he came and I could see he wasn't right but that he wasn't 'mad' either.

He asked me on another date. He kept touching me. He kept standing next to me, leaning into me. He wanted to please me, make me happy. He said he is at zero with me and needs to change that.

He acknowledged that he needs counselling. Said he's going to book it. He acknowledged that it's a long road ahead.

However he did seem in a rush to leave tonight, which is different to Sunday, when he didn't want to leave.

He's not asked to come back. Maybe he just feels guilty and wants to be nice. But my gut says he wants to come back. Or he's working towards wanting to come back.

I'm not ready.......this is all too fast....I thought I'd have a lot longer to get used to this.

Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe he'll go back in the tunnel. Maybe he's just playing me and being nice so he can have the best of both worlds.

Do they really run out of the tunnel like this?

I'm not giving any pressure. I'm being nice, calm, patient, helpful. I'm using words of affirmation (his LL).

Wow this part is hard. All of the parts have been hard. You pray they'll show signs and when they do, it's hard.

I'm trying not to think about the future.