Love is a funny thing... it keeps us going when we want to or should stop in our tracks. The hurt, the pain, the insults, the abandonment all fail in comparison to love. Why do we keep going when the other has seemingly quit?
HOPE... hope for a future together, hope for a rekindled spark, hope for a family put back together, hope for a vision of the future from glimpses of our past.
When we lose hope we quit caring, when we stop caring it's all over.
It's unconditional the kind of love I am talking about... it's all nighters at the hospital, it's cleaning up puke or holding her hair back for her, it's working on us when we want to just curl up and sleep, it's taking the hurt and pain because we love our spouses.
I am officially divorced and thought I wanted to date, my mind screams for it at times... yet i find myself holding back even when women are interested in me. Why?!?! I think it's because I still have hope...
I will wait a while longer, heal, become stronger, try to become wiser and give love unconditionally. I may be hurt in the future but I think I need to do this at this time. I need to know I gave love unconditionally, because that is what I would want from her if I were completely off the banana truck...
You can not change your past, but you can ruin a perfectly good present by worrying about the future.
