I have a question...what do you use to get rid of the "wild" taste when baking a duck? My mother had baked ducks before and they have a funny taste to them at times and she said it's the "wild" taste.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.