I do have a tendency to see the best in people. Even when they are rotten.
My D19 said to me, last spring, when H was coming around and trying to wiggle back into the house. "Mom, I love my dad, but he's really an A$$hole. I don't see why you would ever want him back. He's a jerk."
Hmmmm... Question for myself. Why do I want a jerk? Why have I wasted and continue to waste so much time on someone that even his kids see as a jerk?
I think he tried. I do. I think there's a very endearing, charming, funny quality about him. He wanted to be deeper, more ambitious, nicer... but his addiction and whatever won out. I'm not completely convinced he doesn't have what it takes. But, I'm convinced that, for today, he is absolutely unwilling to become a better person or even try. It's all about him.
M-kay.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
