Things were going so well for the last couple of weeks. Spending family time together, laughing with our son, massages, going out, she even accepted an invite to go to my cousins place from a Xmas dinner. I thought my positive attitude was softening her up a bit.
Then on Saturday night I was supposed to go to a Xmas party. I went but most of the guys bailed. I just went with one buddy and I bumped into some old friends. I was drinking which is bad when I'm around my ex. It was planned that my ex pick me up because there are check stops out now. So my ex comes to pick me up but she arrives a bit early and hangs out with us for a bit. I don't really remember much but supposedly I said some stupid things. I asked her the next day and she seemed ok with it. I apologized and all seemed well. Had a regular day Sunday. We had our couples session in Monday and I was grumpy the moment I got in my truck. My ex was just waking up as I was coming over. I hate being late for things. Plus my coffee was screwed up. So we get to counseling and my ex basically throws me under the bus for Saturday night. I was shocked because it [censored] having your drunken episodes talked about to a counselor.
So basically since Monday she has withdrawn from me. Way less texting and she is using her professional voice again. You know that voice that sounds so impersonal.
Our son threw up last night and I was alone with him. She was out playing pool with that douche face(it actually is bothering me less and less). It was 2 am and she offered to come over and help. I told her it wasn't necessary but she came anyway. My son was actually gravitating towards me. He seems to do that with whoever is taking care if him. It's heartbreaking actually. So this morning she borrows my truck to go home to get ready for work then I drove her to work when she got back.
I'm going to be going out tonight with a female friend(friends since highschool) and my ex will watch our son tonight. But I hope she doesn't think I'm doing this to get back at her for hanging out with that guy last night. I guess I shouldn't care what she thinks.
This hurts because it's basically the first time in a while that she has pulled back and became cold. I know I should continue with my own thing and not ask her questions. Let her initiate everything again.
Why do they do this hot and cold crap?!?!
Me-35 Com law-28 S-3 T-6 yrs w/14 mnth bu 1st bu- 2/2012 Rec-4/2013 2nd bu-10/2013 IC-2 yrs(anger issues) MC- 5 mnths-fail OM~1/1/14 OM dumped 6/4/14 New OM ~10/4/14
