Thanks M! I often look at my boys and get angry at H for missing out on some pretty wonderful times. I have to remind myself that H may be missing out, but I get to make some pretty awesome memories if I choose to move forward. It truly is his loss. I just feel like our Hs think that there is something magical out there that is going to make them happy and we are somehow depriving them from this magical happiness. They have yet to realize that happiness comes from within. Since you and I know that secret, I am confident that we will have happy, fulfilled lives regardless of what happens with our Hs.