One issue I'm still having is dealing with D and her feelings. She is starting to ask more questions about what is going on. Where is mommy, why isn't mommy coming home, I want mommy.
It really breaks my heart that she has to suffer through this too. I want to grab her up and just take her away from all of this. I just kept hugging her and kissing her and telling her that I'm here. Daddy is here.
She just doesn't understand why mommy is not living in our house, in all reality she is riding the roller coaster too
W texted this morning to let me know she wouldn't be taking D to shcool this morning. I took care of it, but this has been something that they do together every morning. D was really upset. She wanted her mommy. I had a hard time keeping it together, but I knew that I had to for her.
These are the moments when living through love are the most challenging. The times when sometimes you wish hate would prevail.
I knew she was staying at OM's house. I wanted to say something, how she was choosing OM over D. But I didn't. I held myself. I didn't allow them to become more important in my head than D.
My W may not be around forever. But My D will always be.
