I've really been asking myself this question for the past few days.
Why would I invite her to our family celebration.
At first I felt like I did not want her to be alone on Christmas, I wanted to protect her.
It became more than that though. I feel like it's something that I need to do for myself. I fully expect her answer to be no. I fully expect that even though she says she will "be alone" on christmas, that she will be with OM.
However, I feel like it is important to me. To know that even after everything she has done. Even after her actions have put our family in a detrimental state, that their is still room in my heart for love.
If I lose that then I will become exactly what I don't want to be. I don't want to be the one to make the decision that she cannot go. I want that to be a decision she has to make.
