Isn't it crazy how, when things go WELL, it's almost always harder to keep those expectations in check! I'm so much better with the awful, miserable and horrifying behavior than the nice stuff.
I'm glad he is having some clarity. Whether it sticks for an hour or here on out, I think it's great he faced some demons.
I've been feeling the up and downs too, as you know... This holiday, I think I came in with this "Why can't this all be over now? I'm sick of MLC and depression and thinking about heavy stuff." Accepting what things are, for today, is hard and, with that acceptance, comes your good days and your not-so-good days. But, I think I'd rather have that than be in my H's skin. At least, I can see some progress and I can see the bad moments get shorter. I can see myself getting stronger too.
I sure wouldn't want to wake up one day and have to face a sh!tload of guilt, pain and consequence to things I've done. At least we, LBS-er's, are facing things as they come as opposed to avoiding and then getting a cold splash of water in the face.
Hang in there, you are doing great!
Heather
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
