Bright, I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers on the job prospect. Don't stop applying for positions...keep looking even if this one looks good. The more irons you have in the fire, the better.
As for your h, you are allowing your mind to wonder and trying to analyze the receipts. "Assuming" and "mindreading" are going to take up too much space in your head and they aren't even paying rent. When the time is right all will be revealed to you.
Take care!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
