Limbo is the new normal

[NeedingMore]

Slow,

I feel ya on the loathing thing. I am experiencing that too, and it is because they show signs of being "in" and then digress. It is SO confusing and I wonder, "is he really happy like this?" Sometimes I feel like saying, $#!@ or get off the pot already!! But patience is our test here. Positive things are still happening and that is so good! I can relate to the holiday stuff. Expectations zero...the right thing to do but so hard!

Breathe!

I just started a new job...and I feel the same way about being tugged in different directions. I am trying to remember that all of this is just life and that if I try too hard to just get BY...I am not fully experiencing what I am going THROUGH...good or bad...and that is a setback in and of itself.
I will be thinking of you through the holidays as well as the others that are on these boards. Sometimes I feel so alone in my R struggles, but these boards are proof that we are never REALLY alone.
Have Faith and know someone is praying for your strength...because it is so inspiring!

Confluences,
I have been following a bit of your sitch through Slow...and I am also wishing you well.