In the case of her birthday it means I think I won’t feel comfortable and at ease there. I don’t trust myself to be able to act-as-if there in a manner that won’t easily be seen through.
I am now somewhat comfortable having her and the children over, talking on the phone and so – two months ago I wasn’t. If I am to meet up with W and perhaps MIL, SIL and others I would like for more time to pass.
At the same time I think this is a day she should experience without me! I have always done a lot for her on this day since nobody can normally attend. I have made flags, homemade buns and all of that – this year I won’t.
Its mainly that I don’t feel like it and at the same time I think it won’t hurt my sit – but honestly I don’t know.
No changes in Christmas plans. Kids are with me this year and Ws next year. XW1 invited herself and W to come here but I declined. W has invited herself to come by on 23 and XW1 as well. I have told XW1 that she can come by on 22 and think I will have W over on 23.
I am sorry to read that things have been crazy – I hope the holiday will bring some peace and relaxation to you!
Thanks!
F P.S. Just read your post on Crimsons – fantastic post and an eye-opener!
Me:44 W:43 D7, D5 (S11 from other R)
T: 8y - not M ILYB: 8. Mar 2013 W moved: 1. Aug 2013 LRT: 20. Aug 2013 _______________________________ Do or do not – there’s no try.
