Thank you both for the replies. Yes, breaking that chain of arguments/conflict is hard. But trying! I live no NorCal and it is freezing right now. No I don't have family here. I have a good friend I talk to.
M15 T19 D13 S13 BD Affair 9/13 S 11/13 D started 6/14.. dropped court date 10/14 H attorney can't get it together. Still with long distance ow. Still hates me.