Sinking into a dark place

[MrBond]

"I know I'm disgusting and she tells me: "you were big when I married you, it doesn't bother me"

You know you have alot of self-loathing for yourself going on.

"I'm bald and have hair on my back.... a makeover won't help that."

There are other ways to improve your appearance. You're not even trying. You'd rather spend the time explaining our disgusting you look and how gross you are, etc. Geez if that's how you see yourself, why would your W want to have sex with you?

" I really thought love was more than appearance."

Let's be honest here. People are visual creatures. You're not talking about love. You're talking about sex. Your W loves you but doesn't want to have sex with you. You can love your children and relatives but you don't have sex with them. Same thing.

Start manning up and start somewhere rather than complaining why you can't. It takes the same amount of effort.