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[reachingHigher]

Job is right. Last year, my H told me he could come either Christmas Day or Eve but not both. He couldn't handle it emotionally.

That changed, he did stay for both, and entered his next stage of crisis.

Hang in there, Ambiv!

[Ambivalent]

Hey Rock!

That's really cool! I'm just loving it, I believe I was born in the wrong generation, HA! Oh well , I'm making up for it now. I recently got to meet the gal, who was in the famous swing movies. She is in her 80's and is teensy. But boy she is still sexy when she dances! She moves so well and even still does aerials.

Jean Veloz is 89 years old, a full thick head of gray hair, and cute as a bug!

I'm learning, and getting better every time. Many of those who saw me in the beginning say I have natural rhythm and good frame...YAY!

So enough about me...tell me are you going back to swing or going to something new? I prefer swing due to the music.

[Ambivalent]

Look up Jean Veloz on Youtube. Also look up Gottaswing!

[Ambivalent]

Job, I had already purchased him a present months ago. A flask with his monogram for hunting. I don't have to give it to him, but whatever.

It is beautiful though, handmade pewter, heavy brass mushroom shaped screw top, SO adorable. It has a cord to hang on neck.

Oh well


Yeah, I'm not planning on talking to him any time soon. He is really down about "no money" ;]

I'm already not expecting or actually expecting him not to come...his loss. I'm actually creeping along and will get there. Up and down she goes, where she lands nobody knows.

I've done more reading on Hero's and really figure he will eventually replace me or in two years something will happen. Right now I just have to keep plugging. I'm no longer going to close myself off from any options right now.

I just want my freedom without guilt. When I say freedom I mean, to do anything, except adultery, without guilt. If it means I go out, then so be it. When I dated my H. I dated 5 or 6 guys at the same time. Not seriously, but I never put all my eggs in his basket until I had a true commitment. That was almost up to when we got engaged.

So this attitude really helps me feel more comfortable with everything. He may be comfortable or not with screwing around , I'm not. But I'm not going to shut myself off from meeting people anymore.

As for the hunting , well, we'll see.

I am taking the damn hitch off so I can use my back area in the suv. If he wants to borrow it, he is going to have to work for it . I'm not going to be so easy to reach right now. I need more distance while he does his experimenting. I don't want to be tempted to look in his car, and I really don't want to know what the Hell he's doing anymore.

I know I don't like him or his behavior right now. I still have love, what kind I really don't know. I am not going to worry about that anymore. Yes, I still feel depressed, but I've done all I can for it. It is what it is, and I have to push forward.

I'll still be kind, but what else I can't say.

[Ambivalent]

Thanks for touching base Reaching.

I'm sure I'll cycle like mad in the next few weeks. I find it gets better for me, as the contact becomes a bit less.

Who knows where this is going , but I'm in self-preservation mode right now.

Fun thing I did today!

While in my bedroom, daughter on bed, I tried on a ton of clothes.

I have lost 30 pounds and I can wear some very nice clothes now. I have several palazzo pants that are PERFECT for swing!

Most of my stuff is way too big now. All my old tennis clothes, really cute skirts and dresses, fit again. I may sign up for a flight soon!

Maybe even mixed doubles! Who knows, I'd prefer a job first.

It was a good mood lifter, and with my daughter cheering me on, it really helped. It was a special m/d moment.

I also found some of my sexy lingerie. Looks better now than it did then! I'm going to have to purchase some new bras though. My DD's are deflating , Hahahahaha!

Perhaps a boob job in the near future. Oh well , it'll be fun to get some new bra's for now.

One day at a time, one moment in time.

[job]

Since you have purchased something for him, and ff you are a gift giver, then I would give it to him at some point during his visit. I wouldn't go over board and purchase him a lot of things, but keep it simple. I think what you purchased him, i.e., the flask is a very nice gift and it's not too personal. He will appreciate it. But keep your expectations at zero as he may not go all out this year on gifts for you.

Please be careful in mentioning other mlc forums here. There are times when the moderators will censure them as Michele offers her services on this forum and it is her livelihood as well.

[Ambivalent]

Since you have purchased something for him, and ff you are a gift giver

What is ff?


I really wasn't planning on buying him anything more. I also don't expect him to buy me a thing.

Please be careful in mentioning other mlc forums here. There are times when the moderators will censure them as Michele offers her services on this forum and it is her livelihood as well.

Okay, but I'm a bit confused. I thought we weren't supposed to do links, but I figured since R.C. was here and succeeded and is in sync with MWD, that it was sort of symbiotic.

[Ambivalent]

Swing was nice tonight. This upcoming Fri. is a twenties themed dance. We've been learning variations on the Charleston.

I have a drop waist tennis dress, it would be perfect as a flapper's dress. I'd have to go from there to figure out the rest.
I'm looking forward to the dance.

Finished Bonnie and Clyde tonight, I found it difficult to see the gal who played Lucretsia Borgia as Bonnie.

We're supposed to get snow again! I also surprised my H. hasn't called about the snow or snow-blower. Oh well, no biggie.

After seeing all the Christmas trees on FB, I guess I need to get my stuff together. I need to start baking too. If it snows tomorrow I'll have three days to get plenty done.

I may pick up another dance or class during the week, to keep my mind from sabotaging myself.
We'll see.

Thankful for:

Daughter's visit

Fitting into some lovely clothes

Dance class and the nice people in it

This forum

The support from all of you

[RockJC]

AB - I am sorry you are having such a rough time during the holidays. I am dealing with similar emotions. The length of your marriage must just intensify things.

When I was in my 20's, my favorite dances in order were:

1) West Coast
2) Hustle
3) East coast
4) 2 step
5) Cha-Cha

I was not very interested in Waltz, Fox Trot, or the rest of the latin stuff. But who knows now. A lady from church wants me to take "Bachata" lessons with her. I never even heard of it. I think I am going to start with West Coast.

That is great that you found this hobby. It [censored] that your H doesn't do it with you. His loss!

I watched a youtube clip of Jean Veloz from 2011 and some "Jitterbug" clips for "Groovie Movie" in 1944. I hope I age that well.

[job]

Ambivalent,
The "ff" was a typo and it should have been "if". Sorry about that, but not all of us are perfect when it comes to thinking and typing at the same time.

Even though RC was/is a member here, she still created her own site w/coaching/counseling services w/fees, just as Michele offers here. Her online forum is now a business competitor of Michele's when you think about it. It's best to refer to sites that offer services for hire as "other forums, etc." and since you are now on FB, that may be a better place to address where you received the info to the other FB participants in DB land. We've had others who joined the forum and then did spin offs w/their own online forums w/fees in the past and we were reminded not to reference them by name or put their links here by name because of the fees for service.

I know that if I had a business and a client who had been utilizing my services for a while began to drop the name of a competitor periodically, I wouldn't like it because that would be considered free advertising as well as possibly taking away from my own livelihood, but also being a bit disrespectful to the current business that I am utilizing. Please keep in mind that I am looking at this in a different way than you because I've been in the business world and have seen how word of mouth references can be interpreted as good intentions, but can also raise the curiosity of others and then the client pool drops or the revenue begins to move elsewhere.

I only mentioned the reference to you because I have seen the names or links censored and the poster reminded not to reference those things in the past. However, you do what you want and if the names or links become censored, you'll know why.

I do wish you all of the best and I'm sure you'll do just fine thru the holidays.




Just my two cents.