Starts off you can hear John Lee Hooker somewhere off in the distance...by the 5 or 6th bite, it's full blown ZZ Top "La Grange" at "11"....the boys loved it, the house smelled so good.
Turned the last Halloween pumpkin into soup, creamed with Vanilla soy milk for our in-house vegans...and was a nice palate cooler for us evil carnivorous chili eaters...
I made enough food with other dishes so that no one has to really cook this week, getting more containers so I can be OCD about the refrigerators organization.
Cleaning, laundry, meditation, read some non-tech "pleasure" books...some Heinlein and "Hannibal".
I've been busting my butt, but you know, it's not any different than if I was a single dad. I like it. After W's mlc, drama is a low priority for me right now. lol. Mellow homebody weekends are just fine.
I am a bit burned-out though, having 6 weeks of vacation time accrued says that I haven't recharged enough, have to look into that after the holidays.
And W was, W. She stopped her ADs a couple weeks ago, so I'm just riding the waves, aloof (for the most part), yet available...there is an increase in her initiating convos, some texting convos (we've never done that). Some teamwork regarding the kids and school and health. I've gotten a wee bit of validation from her, initiated by her.
She invited me to bring the boys and myself by her new store, there is still a need in her to build/have her own thing, I think, separate from the family. And that is okay, she isolated herself for many years with the kids and homeschooling. I can see the good it does for her. It makes me happy despite my exclusion, lol, if that makes sense.
I have been really working on giving the benefit of doubt, giving trust forward, for now, someone has to start, right?
I do trust something I have learned in this journey...the truth wants to be known, and it will find a way. Time.
And I trust I will be okay, regardless. I can give this.
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm
